WHO AM I?

WHO AM I?
by Khristyne Joy S. Paniza

Who would ever think that a sinner like me would be loved by someone so omnipotent? Why would He offer himself to save me from my sins? Am I worth the sacrifice He did 2000 years ago? As the songs goes, “Who am I that the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, would care to know myhurt?”

These are the questions that I often ask myself of how I came into being despite my unworthiness of His great sacrifice. I sometimes find myself rejecting His love and I tend to dwell on earthly things, thinking that this could heal the brokenness in me. Human as I am, I struggle to understand life’s uncertainties and I admit it is hard to find meaning in every endeavor I have. I would sometimes feel empty, scared and not even knowing why these things are happening in my life. The innate vulnerability in me caused me hurts and rejections that left my young and fragile heart wounded. I admit that I was scared of letting go things; things that are within my comfort zone because I was scared of the responsibility that lies ahead when I’ll grow maturely as a Christian. But then I realized that I have God who unconditionally loves me and accepts me for who I am; our Savior who never fails to understand and forgives our sins. There is nothing I should be scared of because He will be there to catch me in every downfall. He would be there to make me understand things and make me appreciate the sacrifice He did. I have God who would always be there for me even if others would depart and I know that I am nothing without God.

As we celebrate the Lenten season, may it remind us of God’s unending love for us, make us value why He offered Himself to save us from our sins 2000 years ago. We may be sinners but we have God who sacrificed for us and who is always willing to forgive us of our sins. We have a God who will make us strong and steadfast when we are tormented by life’s cruelties. We should be thankful that God gave up Himself to redeem us of our sins . May we never fail to submit to His will and in turn, let us unselfishly offer ourselves to Him also.

The next time you’ll ask yourself “Who am I?” never hesitate to answer:

“Lord, I am yours”.